Thus the First Person View of a Neko's Life

[NiaZen]

>w<...I will write the next two ones after I'm back...well, more like three. don't worries! >x<...

[NiaZen]

Entry Four

Well...today...the weirdest thing happened!!!! Darn Nia had to tell Falen about her weird dream...then...ALL WENT INTO CHAOS!!!!!

Hmm hmm...well, anyways...when she told him about it...he went all..."emoish" then went into his little corner...I SWEAR! if it wasn't for the fact that he pinned me to a wall...I would have one new scar on each of my wrists...IT WAS SO DEPRESSING!!! I-I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! wow...I'm freaking out!!!!! TTxTT

okay...now...I ALSO KEEP ON FORGETTING TO TELL HIM ABOUT THAT STUPID DEBT I OWE HIM! The pain has died down...but it has come in more painful bursts...TTxTT

Mia's also taking me tommorow to some blood guy to check out what my species is......I'm scared...wow...it's....OWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!! MANN THAT ONE HURT!!!!

TTxTT really....ow....late....

-Niko

[NiaZen]

Entry Five

Well, I'm back from the docters...they say I'm half wolf, and half feline...so...my theory was wrong...the reason to why I feel the pain is because the rules are equal. They are both neutral.

I also guess that...wait...what was I gonna write??? Hm...I forgot...

Well, last entry was really short...I have nothing to write...but...anyways...tommorow Nia invited me to go to Mexico with her...I'M GONNA HAVE FUN!!!!

-Niko

[NiaZen]

Entry Six

That trip to Mexico was a whole lot of fun...!!! and I also forgot to bring my journal...oops...

Anyways!!! Well, it's also kinda hard to write...I'm exahausted....right when I was coming home, I ran into the Wolf clan and the Neko-Cat clan leaders...it's wasn't pretty.

They have a problem with me being the way I am...my parents were the most loyal, and the strongest of that whole clan...but...there was a war between them, and my parents met...

They fell in love and had me...but years later...they got ambushed by the Queen's soldiers...and..I was the only survivor...how do I know this? Mia told me...

I don't remember anything before I was 7, which makes me sad, no one know's the names of my parents, and the leaders refuse to speak of them...

They said that I was a freak of nature....that I shouldn't be alive, that they don't know why Grand Master Shinbue ever made them fall in love, but it wasn't by force! I'm...sad...

They then said that...no one would ever be able to fall in love with me because of what I was, that I would never have a /girl/ friend...but...I don't think I should've mentioned that I did and that it was a guy...they completly exploded.

I am the first Neko in Tear Drop to be like this...this is why...He...wanted me so much...

Then...they completly teamed up on me...if It wasn't for my bad temper and stupid Bloodlust when I lose my temper..I'd be a little bit more hurt...but...they retreated at the end, only leaving me a few scratches...

I was really scared...when they jumped at me...I...I lost my temper...I changed to my wolct form...and...I attacked them. They both came at me, Cat and Wolf, teaming up together to attack the Wolf-Cat...it tore at them...leaving a few scratches on them too...they retreted, but the left a threat...that...that if I was ever to return...an ambush would be waiting for me...and...they would take care of me...I don't know if that will be true...but...I'm scared...

well....bye...I'd better stop writting before I get the pain again...oh yeah, when I was in mexico...I wasn't able to sleep once...I'm so tiered...I want my Falen...


-Niko

[NiaZen]

Entry Seven

I haven't written in this in a long time...but...to sum up what I didn't write...one:

Nia told Falen about her wierd dream, if he would've left, I would have had 2 or more new scars on my wrists...but...Falen came back and stopped me...I was so sad...but...I really hope that nothing like that will happen again...

Two:

Hm...well, I am really glad...Falen told me that this is the first time that the words "I love you" actually mean something. I'm so head over heels for that guy...he's the best. He understands me...I love him so much...but there are times...like when Howl comes around...I-I...I don't know...it's as if he doesn't like me being near Falen...but...well, nevermind. I love Falen, and if they ever take him away from me...I'll get really mad...this is the first time I've ever been in love..and...I...I can't live without him!

three:

The debt is payed...no more pain for me...yet...I think...wait..no...never mind...I'm still in one....but first, how I payed the last two...was that....Falen discovered that he needed me, that...well, it's really hard to explain...

Now...the thrid debt I'm in, well, once again, it has something to do with Falen...I'll explain it now:

He and I are getting closer, and...well, he keeps on "stealing" me. One night though, I had to go out because I had to get something for Mia and I completly forgot about that....

So, I snuck out, and teleported to Tear Drop...I got the thing Mia needed, but...as I walked to her house...the thing the leaders threated me about...it was true...the whole clan, both, were waiting to ambush me...

They just sprung, I was outnumbered at least 500 to one...I couldn't do anything, they just came at me...they bit at me, they tore...they slashed...I had a shoulder ripped open, ton's of wounds on my stomach...they ripped off my shirt, they didn't leave one part of my body un-hurt.

They were everywhere, and I didn't have time to react, I couldn't do anything, just get hurt and torn to pieces, but I ended up escaping...but, I had lost too much blood already.

I limped back to Falen, and I continued to say sorry, I fainted, but I felt that it was his presence that allowed me to live, other than the fact that Bolt came and healed me, but...if it wasn't for him, I would've died, I would've let myself die...scince there would be no need for another freak of nature like me...

But, his soul...his love for me...the fact that he loves me, respects me, understands me, it gave my body a chance, a chance to live, it gave my soul something to hold on to...to not leave...

That's why I'm in his debt again...for giving me a chance to live...to be with him forever...and never leave his side...

But, scince Falen won't leave me for more than a few minuets, I can't really prove that I'm in his debt...and...

Is it just me or is it really hot in here...wait...no...it's cold...WHAT THE?!? I CAN'T BE SICK!!! mann...I've gotta go now...i hate being sick...stupid fever...why did I have to get out?! stupid stupid stupid!!! noo...no no no!!! mann...now...bleh...it's really hot...yet it's really cold...I'm sweating and shivering...AAHH!!!! I can't....write....at....all.....I'm....shivering....so....badly....

-Niko

[verscilith]

You jsut enjoy being mean to Niko, don't you? *sighs* Well, be glad I've banned Falen from reading these over my shoulder. ELse Niko would be having even bigger issues with teh whole "Falen-stalking-him-every-moment-of-his-day" thing.

[rivenmist]

Oh geeze....That's a little scary....

Sounds like Purple and Green.
XD

[NiaZen]

yes, all my charries are tortured at least once...but with Niko, I'm done...^w^...new entry coming soon!!!!!!

[NiaZen]

Entry Eight

YAY!!! I'M NOT SICK ANYMORE!!!! I'm really happy, as you can see...

Well, it turns out, I'm gonna have a sister...yes, a sister...

No, Mia and Kumatu aren't having a child yet, nor are they married yet...but, a messenger sent a letter to Mia, saying that another Wolf and Neko-Cat villagers had a child...

What happened to her parents? The wolf and Neko-Cat leaders and clan just killed them, but she happened to escape...

I know, it's very brutal, but... I feel bad for her, she's only 9...well, when my parents got ambushed, by the Queen's soldiers, though, I was only 7 or 8...I don't remember that well, I got amnesia...so...I only remembered my name, my age, but not anything of my parents...which makes me really sad, because they were practically legendary in the clans, either by heros, or assainators, my mother would be the top assasinator of the Wolf clan, hero of her clan, and my father, top assasinator of the Neko-Cat clan, hero of his clan...It's very confusing, but they were practically cherished, I heard, and...they fell in love, completly ruining the hopes of both clans..

And every day...to change the subject, I seem to fall more in love with Falen...I...love him...more...and...more...each...day...oh yeah...I've gotta ask him again to see if I'm in another debt...or I should try hiding for a while, then if the pain comes, I'll know...mann, if only there was a way to know if you were in debt or not!!!!!

Hmm....I could ask Mia! Be right Back.

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....

OK!!! I GOT IT! She says that...wow...I'm basically noting everything in this journal...scary...but anyways!...she says that you can know when your in a debt when...you...uh...what was it again? Inner emotion? Something like that...or, as always, something good happened to you, in other words, me surviving thanks to Falen...which I think that is basically it...

Lemme check what that "Inner Emotion" thing is...lemme see...

Inner Emotion:

When you consentrate for a long time in nothing. You close your eyes, and just empty out your mind, nothing but black surrounds you, and soon, you shall see a picture, a picture that tells you what your in debt from. If no picture comes up, then there is no debt to be payed. Inner Emotion takes a long time to master, and it also takes a lot of energy, but it is a skill, that all Neko's must learn, for if ever in a debt, they shall have to know what for.

wow...thats wierd...and a lot of energy...that doesn't sound very fun...but

it's late, so...I've gotta go now...

G-Night

-Niko

[NiaZen]

la la la la la, I've got to add more entries!!! OoO

[rivenmist]

OxO

You should give meh cute picture ideas for Falen + Niko.....XD

[NiaZen]

no thank you...^-^...well, okay, but...idk...o.O

[NiaZen]

Entry Nine

And it has been infinity scince I have written in my poor journal...I'm sorry...

And...wow...waaaaay too much has happened, it's, just...wow...

I've got to snap out of it, and well, it /is/ my journal, so I can write /anything!/ YAY!

Sorry, this part has been taken out, you cannot read it, Niko pleaded me to not put it in..so...yah...

It was...wow. Well, I, uh...what was I going to write...mann, I have short term...I REMEMBER!

I fall in love with Falen every day even more, it's like, I can't even say I love him because it's much more than that...I...I...I feel as if he's part of me...well, now more than ever, but, I...he's, he's like, the half of my soul, the half of my heart, that half of me that was missing...the part, the part in which I wanted...

I showed him the highest cliff, the one in which I was planning to kill myself. And to that, he made me promise that I would never jump off it, and, I ment it, after I met him, he saved me from a terrible death.

What I would've done, was, just leave myself open for Taik, no, I'm not scared to say his name anymore, but, then, after that, I would, well, jump off of it. It's nearly impossible to survive, it's more than 500,000 METER'S high...and...well, it would've been a painful death, but a fast one.

But what I planned to do before, was to find my half, and I stumbled into Florida, and...well, there Taik found me, and...there, He, Falen, found me...I knew it was love at first sight, I knew it.

And these are some words that I'm never going to forget, either..."Niko, we, we can't be together." Those are a few words from Falen when I told him I loved him...but, the reason why, was because he was immortal, and I wasn't, but, Bolt came, and I know the rest of the story.

Well, to sum it up, I'm more than happy that I met Falen.

OH YES! Also, Falen shifted into a really...hawt @w@...neko...And the other day, at the cliff, he turned into a /beatiful/ pheonix, I think it was a rainbow one. But, he gave me a feather, I wear it in my hair now, but, it was such a, beautiful bird.

Also, Falen doesn't really like to leave my side, I don't mind, I adore his company, and also, a while ago, Shadow put a huge aquarium with pufferfish in it...in five minuets...I loved it!

Well, that's it, so, I'll write soon, bye.

-Niko

[rivenmist]

No secret part?? Awww....*this inspires me to draw fun Neko and falen fanart*

XD

[NiaZen]

it's secret, only Ver know's bout it...and Kyuu...o.O

ps, I'm going to add the new one right after I get back from mexico