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Post by idyllian on Mar 14, 2009 3:23:53 GMT -8
Dexter~ Don't ever say "love" to me again...and two...then your an idiot.
Thantos~ Who's Shelby?
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Post by verscilith on Mar 14, 2009 14:32:09 GMT -8
Falen: Chicku that stole Ver's sketchpad. I could easily command female hordes with my astounding maleness.
...Lies. She liked the picture because you're a pretty, womanly man.
Falen:...... Couldn't let me gloat, could you.
You still get to gloat, shut up. -__-
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Post by idyllian on Mar 14, 2009 16:29:31 GMT -8
Thantos~ LOL.
Astrid~ LOL At the dress that makes you look like a girl Verrin.
Athena~ *sighs*
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Post by NiaZen on Mar 14, 2009 17:34:21 GMT -8
Varius: Of course my blood doesn't taste that good, I think innocent little girl's blood tastes the best *shrugs and takes out his dagger and wipes off some fresh blood*
you really scare me Niko...
Varius: *sighs* For the last time it's not Niko...
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Post by verscilith on Mar 14, 2009 17:36:50 GMT -8
Verrin:...I will make this the hardest thing you have ever had to do.
Falen: -snorts as he tries not to laugh hysterically--just found his newest favorite thing to torment-
Regan: YES.
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Post by NiaZen on Mar 14, 2009 17:46:32 GMT -8
Varius: *cocks his head and puts the dagger away* people like to dissapear when I appear, wonder why...
Oro: maybe you should lay off the killing overall and give us back the old Niko
Varius: No can do, corruption is permanent my love! Maybe you shouldn't have let him fall in love with him *points at Falen*
Oro: It's not his fault
Varius: Not from what I remember...
Oro: it's your own fault!
Varius: *laughs* Everything is now, isn't it?
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Post by idyllian on Mar 16, 2009 3:30:44 GMT -8
Dexter~ *is still there* You're just blind.
Smith~ Corruption is not perminate.
For even in the heart of a star there is darkness...and in the heart of darkness there are stars.
And honestly...I thin it's because your afraid to move on.
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Post by NiaZen on Mar 16, 2009 18:39:27 GMT -8
Varius: Oh no, my dear. Corrupted heart and a Corrupt are two entirely different things. A Corrupt can only be made from a taisk, a person with a guardian angel. Such as Niko. Once they have suffered so much of something, they start growing, their heart grows corrupt, a darkness in which no light can come. They lust for that in which they have suffered, Pain was Niko's. Pain...he was surrounded in it, he began to have a lust for pain....until he allowed me to take over, the last step is allowing the corruption. Niko allowed it, he knew nothing good would ever come into his life, so he let me come. Thus, I found I enjoy oh so very much pain from others, but my own pain as well...*hint at those new scars on his shoulders*
Oro: A corrupt is a being, a being is permanent...unless the person who was corrupted over accepts it and want to come back to the way they used to be...and I'm sure Niko doesn't want to come back...
Varius: Who would when they are living my life?! THIS IS LIVING THE LIFE MANN!
you are crazy, I swear you are...
Varius: Well, the last time I checked it's the first letter to my C.I.M.R. thing...
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Post by idyllian on Mar 17, 2009 2:18:35 GMT -8
Smith~ I smell a contradiction, but I digress. And in any case there's on'y one thing to say at this point.
I feel sorry for you. You are a sad..sad little man, and I feel so sorry. But I still think you're afraid. You're hiding from the world in a shadow that I can see right through.
You were lost, and afraid...afraid of being alone and something came along and offered you this. I seemed so good from where you were standing, it offered you a way out and you took it. It promised to save you but in the end you're no better off then you we're before trapped in a sea of hattred.
I'm so sorry for what's been done to you.
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Post by NiaZen on Mar 17, 2009 18:27:07 GMT -8
Varius: Niko's afraid of coming back...we are basically two different beings. I am one and he is the other. Niko's innocence resides in his half, Blake. While I, Varius, am his corrupt, his desire. I am him but in a corrupt way, I guess you can put it. I'm not afraid, I love what I do, it's my passion, it's my desire, it's Niko's desire.
Niko is the one who is scared, he's scared to come out. He's scared to see the world. He's scared to know whether or not he's ever going to be happy again. But, my dear. A corrupt is a being, as my love Oro has said, and a being cannot be "un-permenant." You, my dear, are permanent. Oro, my dear, is permanent. So why am I not permanent? Because I simply used to be someone else? Because my former being was nothing like I am today? Because you refuse to accept that I am a Corrupt, a type of being, a being which cannot change and has never been known to have their orignal innocence come out and accept that this is not what they want? That they don't care if they've suffered? That, my dear, is why I am permanent unless Niko truly wants to come back...I have no say, I love this life!
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Post by idyllian on Mar 18, 2009 2:10:54 GMT -8
Smith~ You are contradicting yourself again.
Anyway.
I already established the whole fear thing. And who said that I was acctually talking to what Im looking at? *smiles*
To be honest, when you've seen what I've seen you're scared too see a lot more then just one world. But it doesn't stop me from living. No, you see life's got it's rogh spots but the moment you hide from it, that's the moment when things like him destroy you.
Are you sure that you want to hide forever, I know it's hard to leave the one's you love behind but sometimes it's for the best.
And do you want to know why I'm taking all of this time for this...it's because I care, I care about every man, woman, immortal...alien and other living/ ought to be living person that I have ever met.
Idyllian hasn't quite figured out why, but I don't really care.
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Post by NiaZen on Mar 19, 2009 9:08:07 GMT -8
Varius: Contradiction, that is what I am doing is it? My dear, you keep speaking to me as if I am Niko. I am not Niko, yet I am. We are two separate people and he is the one scared to move on, scared to let go of the things he loved. Niko lives within me, I am simply the desire that had grown as he lived in pain. The revenge he wanted as he suffered, as he made others suffer. I am his desire, I am not him. What I do is what I love...ahhh...I see what you speak of now! Excuse my slow reaction...*he closes his eyes and thenhe begins to glow, the light fades and looks at Smith, a voice echos but it is not Varius.* I wish not to come out, it is indeed true that I am scared...I wish not to see all I have done....I wish to see others suffer as I have...I wish to see them scream, yell as they see me (varius) suck up their will. It is my desire. I wish not to let go my past...why not let others suffer as I have? I know the one who has made me suffer most won't ever suffer as I have...he said he loved me...but he lied....
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Post by verscilith on Mar 20, 2009 18:06:03 GMT -8
Shadow: -appears out of the ground in a large swirl of shifting shadows that stick around, sparking across the ground in infuriated swirls and loops- -pupilless red eyes flashing dangerously as he fixes Varius/Niko with them-
You... you insignificant, ungrateful little waste! If only you knew what Broke that day.. But you'll never know because you never stopped to think about what He really is. And what is that? He is the embodiment of cruel things... he carries out what you preach and has all his life! From the moment I first touched him he lashed out at others. To inflict suffering and pain...
Guess what? He TOLD YOU. Not as outright as We have had to explain it now, but He. Fucking. Told. You. And you should have known.. Ever has he Eaten? Ever has he Drank? Nay.. naught but from the Elixir of all that is Living.. Blood in laymans terms.
And he only ever meant to play games. That's all he ever means to do.. and sometimes he does. But... not that time. No.. he went and fell in love. Yes.. he was in love. It was not surprising.. he loved easily. Always has. But.. it was different again. He actually /loved/. Such as I used to feel from him, he /loved/. And out of love he turned his unruly attentions away from the innocence he was corrupting... but all of his careful planning failed. It backfired upon him.. and upon me.
The instant he found out that the cat was supposedly dead... I thought I should weep for the pain radiating from that broken soul of a man. He tried to kill himself as the cat had... only Falen suceeded. Sixteen times and every time he came back with another blast of pure, unfiltered pain.Finally he just locked himself away and ran off before I could tell him no. And then proceeds the story you know, you worthless waste of my partner.
So try and spew the shit that he didn't love... just try and watch if I don't rid you of your life. Don't fucking play me you little cat bastard... it was hard enough to watch you build him up and tear him down, but to insult everything We endured... blasphemy of things you will never understand.
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Post by NiaZen on Mar 20, 2009 20:20:10 GMT -8
Varius: Pain is all I desire, I don't quite understand this thing these worthless beings call love...but...
He told me he loved me...he said it was the first time he ever loved someone and it actually meant something...I knew what he was...I broke down...I broke down when I found something out...I want to cause pain...because I already caused pain...and I know the one I caused the most pain was in /him/...I caused him pain, that is why I tried to kill myself, because I lied...I made myself belive later on that he was the one who lied and tried to forget about it...but it only made things worse...
I moved with Blake...Rena's mouse died...my feather's color was fading away...Blake got shot because of Taik...he spent two weeks in the hospitol, I was locked up in his body, only remembering all the pain I had gone through, remembering all the pain I had made people go through...make people suffer, that's what I did...that's what I loved...Varius grew...my corruption grew...and now I'm scared...I don't want to see the world I've created...I don't want to see the horridness through my eyes...everything looks so different out of Varius's eyes...
I see pain, I feel pain, I hear pain...I love pain...I've suffered so much and I've created so much I grew a lust for it...but that lust was all in Varius, it no longer lives in me...now I'm scared. I don't want to see the new world...I don't want to see people crying. I don't want to see myself bleed from something I did to myself. I don't want to hear people scream as Varius sucks out their soul...but it's the only thing...I lust for it...Varius lusts for it...he is me...but he's not....
(thought) How emotional...wa wa wa... *rolls his eyes* Fear is something you make yourself belive you idiot (to Niko). You're scared, to see what I've done, not what you have done, if you come out I'll still be here, and no blame will go to you idiot.
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Post by idyllian on Mar 21, 2009 4:02:27 GMT -8
Smith~ Have I not been trying to say this the entire time...Yes I have for thoes of you playing at home. But I digress.
The man who spends everyday in fear is condemed. If you start this now then you're never going to be rid of it. You're never going to be able to move on. You'll judt be stuck, forced to watch everyone you ever cared for in any possible way disappeare. And all you'll have left is pain, that's a narrow path with only one recovery....
You're afraid to see what you've done but if you remain ignorant it will only become worse, it will devour you my friend and then, you'll have nothing...absolutely nothing.
This thing that I'm looking at is not you, it's just mearley a mask like the skin on my face. You're looking at the world through rose colored glasses, that could make a Galatic trash barge look like a city park. It's not going to help you. Running away would be better then hiding, that's my opinion anyway...
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